“I got the call, and I went over, and I saw her and I said goodbye to her in the hospital, and I closed her eyes, and I kissed her forehead, and that was that,” Wynonna, 58, advised CBS Sunday Mornings in a phase that aired on Sunday, September 25. “And next thing I know, I’m sitting here on the side porch, and I’m just trying to figure out what’s next.”
In August, the autopsy announced that Naomi died at age 76 after a self-inflicted gunshot wound.
“Per family, the decedent has had prior suicidal ideations and recent life stressors. A weapon and a note with suicidal connotations were found near the decedent at the scene,” the post-mortem famous, revealing that Judd has a medical historical past of “significant” anxiousness, bipolar dysfunction, continual idiopathic pneumonitis, hepatitis C, hypertension, hypothyroidism and melancholy.
She’d struggled with psychological sickness for many years, and Wynonna defined throughout her CBS interview that she didn’t notice her mom was feeling so desolate. “I did not know that she was at the place she was at when she ended it, because she had had episodes before and she got better,” the Kentucky native mentioned. “And that’s what I live in, is like, ‘Was there anything I should have looked for or should I have known?’ I didn’t.”
When requested if she held any anger whereas grieving her mom, Wynonna mentioned she was “incredibly angry” and couldn’t think about letting that emotion go “for a while.”
Naomi and Wynonna weren’t simply mom and daughter; they have been singing companions, creating the duo The Judds. The Grammy winners deliberate a fall tour that the “No One Else on Earth” songstress will embark on with the help of famous friends (together with Martina McBride, Brandi Carlile and Kelsea Ballerini, to title a number of), however she expects to maintain onto her fierce feelings as she performs every live performance.
“As I walk out on stage that first night, I’ll probably say something like, ‘It’s not supposed to be like this,’ because it’s not, right?” Wynonna mentioned. “It’s supposed to be the two of us. And I’m gonna be angry because she’s not there.”
Other grudges, nonetheless, have disappeared. She and sister Ashley Judd have put apart their variations. “We both kind of look at each other like, ‘I’ve got you,’ right? And we look at each other and we say, ‘Yeah.’ We’re so united right now, I think more so than we have been in a long time,” the artist defined.
Despite her anger, the nice recollections Wynonna has of her mom maintain discovering their approach again. “She took my hand and she said, ‘My life is better because of you.’ Those are the memories that are starting to come through, more and more,” Wynonna mentioned. “I think when you lose your mother, a lot of that crap goes away, ’cause it doesn’t matter anymore. It just doesn’t.”
If you or somebody is in emotional misery or contemplating suicide, name the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 988.